I Saved Myself

Reasons to be proud

I got my life together in spite of every motherfucker

That tore me down

In spite of all the hims…

That dude that didn’t believe in me,

The one who didn’t call me pretty,

The one who was out fucking other women when he said he loved me

That guy that didn’t say sorry when he hit me

You know him. 

My son is beautiful

He laughs as if I never had to take a punch to protect him

He perpetuates innocence

And I am damn proud to have been able to 

Shape his views on life 

To be that of love and genuine happiness.

Reasons to be proud

I am beautiful

My laugh is contagious

I look at my body and say my curves are splendid

The scars are wide on my stomach

And I am like….damn I am a warrior

I gave birth without breaking my composure

Without flinching 

I’ve gotten back up everytime life hit me

Taking deep breaths

Reasons to be proud

My bills are paid for

I work hard so that my son plays more

Sees more,

Experiences life no matter the cost

Because I am a BOSS

Life’s limitations are laughed at

You got reasons why I can’t be that

Do that

Want that

…I say I got that.

Watch me smile.

And I will love you

In spite of your envy

In spite of your jealousy

No matter if you can’t keep up with me

I am strong enough to fight for me

To choose love over your rude company

Loving all that hurt me from afar

Because you can’t be allowed to inspire me to hate

Can’t be important enough that I would negotiate 

my price

Reasons to be proud

I am young

Born free

Born in the company of a mother and father who didn’t believe in my dreams

Lucky enough to have the challenge

Brave enough to use my talents

To outgrow the chains 

Courageous enough to love no matter the cost

Courageous enough to be myself

In the face of indifference.

Push me, kick me, throw me down.

Tell me I am nothing

Leave me empty handed,

Hands upturned because I expected it. 

And every time I needed saving,

I saved myself. 


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